Its almost Thursday again...

I'm still having a hard time with my job situation, its not easy, that is for certain.  I get very consumed with how other people feel and less concerned about how I feel, so then it makes it very hard for me to make changes.  I am also scared lifeless of change, so that on top of it all brings me to the way I feel now.  I know every one will survive and move on just fine, I just am struggling because I don't want any  hurt feelings or grudges held.

I'm just unhappy and I need to make the change to make myself happy, its what should be most important to me and to anyone that might care about my well being.

Also, I can't stay miserable for someone else, thats just not fair to me.  I hope you understand.

Anyway, it is almost March... March is almost May... May is practically August... and shortly after August, he'll be home.  -- Its still hard, even if I try and think of it his way.  haha.  I have a hard time with the time difference too.  It's difficult, all around.  How do people survive like this all the time?  I can't imagine!  I guess I can imagine... I'm living with it.  Its tolerable because I know he'll be home soon enough and he is worth he wait.  Best guy ever.  I'm very lucky.  He's pretty darn lucky as well.

Watching Mad Men again... obsssssessed!  I just want to live like them!  I know its glamorized on that show, but at the same time, not really... haha.  Its just so beautiful, the dresses, the sets, the parties... oh how I love it!  I'm going to watch another episode right now.  And I'm going to bring back my internet window shopping... post the things I love on here from time to time.  I enjoy that so much... its the next best thing to owning the things I love... I will start off with this:

Its beautiful.  And my next life goal.  I will own you.

<3