...or is it just stress? I am so stressed and I keep going back and forth with my thoughts... so stressful conflict? Whatever it is, I'm going crazy. My head hurts again just thinking of this... so tomorrow my neck will probably kill me. Just as it was getting better I'm going to stress myself out so much to upset the whiplash injury. UGH. Why can't I make things easy on myself?
I'm having a hard time with my current job situation (lack of) and trying to figure out my next step. I have a little obstacle in my way, which is not making it any easier; actually two obstacles. One is real and the other isnt probably an obstacle at all, but since I'm over thinking it, I've made it an obstacle. Oh man, I wish I could just figure it out and just be done with it, but I'm the most indecisive person alive so everything is going to take 10 times longer. A lot of the time, I just let things just fall into place because I can never make up my mind... it works out pretty well most of the time like that, but I dont think I'm going to get that lucky this time. Things haven't been all that easy in the past 6 months, and I don't think things are going to change in that aspect. I am going to have to figure it out soon... but I'm a little stuck and I have to wait it out. I hate being stuck & I hate waiting. Worst place for me to be in... I just cause myself so much anxiety when I'm in a situation like this.
And while I'm at it... I just like to add other stresses while I'm stressing. I beat myself up a lot. I'M JUST SO F R U S T R A T E D!! I'm driving myself crazy...
I will figure this out, I will get through this. It will be okay. I just need to power through this right now, do the best I can do and then move on to the next step. Take it day by day.
Relax and just breath...
