I'm so tired of things not going smoothly. *sigh I need to let it all go but I'm having a hard time. I am trying to control everything with all my might and then I get SO upset (angry most of the time) when things aren't going as I hoped or planned. This is happening in every aspect of my life... work, things with R, friends, family, etc. I know if I let go... things will fall into place just as they are supposed to. It's just hard, I'm such a stress ball lately! My emotions are just not in check. I don't know if its all the commuting and its making me overly tired & under stimulated? I don’t know, but I just can't seem to let go.
This weekend I'm going down to San Diego, I need this. I hope I come back a different person. I haven't had a lot of fun lately and all I do is worry and stress out about everything. I need a break. I need a long stretch without any issues or problems. I am having trouble with my positive thinking, so I will just breath & take it one step at a time; and let go...
I'm going to just keep trying...
