One day.

"To conquer frustration, one must remain intensely focused on the outcome, not the obstacles" - T.F. Hodge

Okay, Mr. Hodge - I'm trying.

I just seem to run into obstacles all too often lately. Seriously... I would like a break from obstacles, please. Although I have A LOT of great in my life; sometimes I just can't help but think of the obstacles I'm still dealing with.

Today my feelings were hurt pretty good. R is incredible. He is. And I know he can't be perfect everyday... he's perfect just about always. But today... he just was a little hurtful. I feel like sometimes he forgets that I have feelings and that I am also in this. We aren't living in R's world... and I know that he forgets at times.  I'm just ultra frustrated right now.  This isn't that big of a mess that I want to bring it up to him, especially since we only get a short amount of time to talk & emails don't really express feelings very well.  Earlier I was having a really hard time with him being gone.  I was left with my feelings hurt and no way to talk to him.  I can't call him and if I emailed him, he would have gotten it at like 1am tonight; if I'm lucky.  Nothing would be solved and I would just torture myself with 'did I say the wrong thing in my email?'.  Ugh.  SO frustrating.  Sometimes this situation SUCKS, well this situation sucks always, but it super sucks sometimes.  I know its not forever and not every day is going to be golden... I just have to go one day at time... tomorrow is a new day.

Deep breath.

I'm PMSing & I've been having a hard time with sleep since my neck started killing me.  Those two things do equal me being overly sensitive... thats another reason he doesn't need to hear about this.  

Upside to today... my neck pain is a lot less today!  The Chiro did something right this time!  Its fantastic!  I went hiking earlier and saw a snake (A SNAKE!!!).  I lost my mind and started running far far away from the snake (He could have chased me!)... after I stopped running I realized that was the first time in a month, at least, it didnt hurt!  It was fantastic!!  And I'm not even paying for it now... I feel OK!  I haven't tried to lay down yet... thats the true test.  A good nights rest would be a dream!  *crossing fingers*

Starting in April (I can't believe its already April... if I wasn't looking so forward to October being here, I'd be pissed that its already April) I'm going to do the Photo A Day Challenge again... I had such fun in January and most of February with it!  I need to into doing something fun everyday.  I will share it here.  Maybe then I'll get back into blogging again.  I miss it.  Right now all this is me rambling about how frustrated I am and thats not very fun.  I want a fun blog again.  I look back at my old one (http://lemoyenrouge.wordpress.com/) and I was so FUN!  I started it to remind myself of how fab my life is... I think I need that reminder again.  My life really is so super fabulous. 

Alright, I think I've rambled on enough... xo

Looking forward to getting back to it!  Yay April!!